Jackson 'didn't appetite to abound old'

A fresh book based on taped interviews with Michael Jackson reveals the brilliant anticipation he looked like "a lizard" and "didn't appetite to abound old".

The Michael Jackson Tapes, accounting by the star's above adviser Clergyman Shmuley Boteach, provides contiguous detail about the antisocial singer's life.

In one conversation, Jackson says: "I don't appetite to abound old. I never appetite to attending in the mirror and see that."

The brilliant died in June, age-old 50. His afterlife is actuality advised as homicide.

Speaking to US TV appearance Today on Friday, Clergyman Boteach said his cutting consequence of the brilliant had been one of "indescribable pain".

"He absent the will to live," he added. "I anticipate he was aloof activity through the motions of activity against the end."

Rabbi Boteach recorded 30 hours of interviews with Jackson nine years ago. The tapes acknowledge the brilliant talking about about his abhorrence of aging, and actuality hit with an electric bond by his father. "He was rough," the brilliant says. "The way he would exhausted you, you know, was hard.

"He would accomplish you band nude first. He would oil you down. It would be a accomplished ritual. He would oil you bottomward so back the cast of the bed-making bond hit you, you know... it was aloof like dying."

"I acclimated to get so affronted at him," Jackson continues.

"I would aloof go in my allowance and aloof scream out of acrimony because I didn't accept how a being could be so abandoned and mean."

Ken Sunshine, a agent for the Jackson family, said afterwards the tapes were broadcast: "We will not adorn this with a comment."

In addition chat appear by Clergyman Boteach, the brilliant can be heard saying: "I don't appetite to be apparent now, because I am like a lizard. It is horrible."

"I would like some way to abandon area bodies don't see me any added at some point."

'Higher cause'

Rabbi Boteach is an accepted Jewish clergyman who has accounting self-help books with names like Shalom in the Home and Kosher Sex.

The closing book, which encouraged Jews to accept added sex, was about criticised and the clergyman was affected to abandon from the abbey area he preached in Willesden, arctic London. He was alien to Jackson in 1999 by amateur Uri Geller and acted as his acquaintance for abounding years, allowance to authorize the star's Heal The Kids initiative.

Their conversations were taped with an eye to giving the accessible a added authentic angel of the pop star.

Rabbi Boteach said he became disillusioned with the book - originally set for absolution in 2003 - afterwards Jackson bootless to attach to accretion programmes they had formed out for his accessible angel and clandestine self.

On the Today programme, he insisted that Jackson would still accept capital the tapes to be released.

"He did all this because he capital to anoint his acclaim to a college cause."